My Challenge.

Romans 12:3

“For I say, through the grace given to me, to everyone who is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think, but to think soberly, as God has dealt to each one a measure of faith. "

I've made a pact with myself lately that I will not believe untruthful things about me. That's quite a challenge for me......probably for anyone, really......because I struggle with believing not only negatives about myself, but untruthful positives, too. Sounds ridiculous....but there's method to the madness.

God definitely blessed me with many talents. I used to think I had little talent....maybe it was false modesty. But, I finally decided to believe and accept the true abilities God gave to me. And I enjoy them and use them as best I can. They really are a saving blessing to me.

But......then there are talents I want that I have not been given. Talents I want desperately. Talents I am never going to have.

Focusing on the gifts God has not given me has taken away my love and enthusiasm.....and my thankfulness...... for the gifts God HAS given me.

And that is a horrible shame. Shame on me.

It's so easy to look at the artists around me and compare. I compare what I can do with what they can do. I'm talking about visual artists AND performing artists. And even teachers. And other business owners. And other mothers. And wives. And.......the list goes on. And then, of course, that leads to age and how I look. And why does that gal, who is the same age as me, look 30 when I still look 38?

Oh, dear.

It's a slippery slope.

So, my challenge to myself.....and anyone reading this is welcome to jump into this boat with me.......my challenge to myself is to focus on the beautiful, beautiful gifts and talents I've been given......and not try to force those which I have not been given.

God is good.

He chooses what to give and whom to give to. And He is a lot smarter than me. And besides that.....he chose for me to be born in 1974.....not 1984. So who am I to moan about my age.