This morning I slept in until 7:30. Yes, I know that doesn't sound like much but for me it's grand. No lunches to pack, noone to push out the door with backpacks, water bottles and shoes that match. Just a nice lazy morning listening to my sweet girls playing together, laughing, daydreaming, singing songs......and yes, the occasional argument. That's okay. I'll take it.
I'm so in awe of my children. And sitting here listening to them on this fine morning while I suck down another cup of coffee (I thought about fasting coffee today because I've been drinking gallons of it. You see how far that went) I'm overwhelmed by a sense of gratitude. And so many miracles God has performed in my piddly little life flow through my mind.
The obvious ones are my sweet husband and awesome kids. Nothing trumps that. And I could go down the list and highlight them all. That will be another, very long, long post.
But I also think about the gallery. Most people don't know that it was actually GIVEN to me by a fabulous gentleman and his family. I had no confidence in myself at the beginning of this venture but really believed God was in it, so I did it.
I'm so glad I did.
Having little confidence or a sense of self worth for years, jumping head first into an unknown venture like the gallery has worked hard to change all that. I'm a different person. I prayed for years that God would help me think differently of myself. And I guess I just didn't think I was valuable or able to do valuable things. And I truly believe God gave me this gallery because it forced me to do what I believed I couldn't; run a business, be around people for extended periods of time without being overwhelmed, develop relationships, manage my time, organize, facilitate........
And although I have a long way to go, I've come a long way, too. And I'm in awe of how God answers prayers and the pathways He puts in front of us. We choose yes or no. And every 'yes' I've said has come with a price. The work has been hard. Not just with the gallery but with having kids, with marrying the love of my life, with maintaining relationships, with being kind to people......many things. But the work has been worth it. And the outcome of saying 'yes' to God has been the ride of my life.
I can't wait to see what comes next.
I'm in awe.